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He is gone, with two breaths, so far apart and strained, then with a whoosh, the air that was him touched my face.  He floated past yet remained.  I still feel him today.  There have been times when he is tenderly holding my hand and then I look and gasp, no fingers intertwined.  I watch the videos prepared by family and I bawl like a baby, I sob and moan.  I want him back, not possible.  It feels like someone beat me up, I hurt all over.  Then I am okay until I walk and find myself stumbling at times like a drunk, yet I have had nothing.  The world is different now muted and blurred, no lines of definition.  I blend in with the blur and linger there, hiding from everything.  Where are you my love?  I miss you so.

   

It is disturbing to me that artists art, on this site, would be frowned upon as not meaningful.  Link to article below.

That is completely unacceptable.  If you want to categorize art as fun, water-world, toe lickers, vampire loving, whatever, grunge city, ticks, ants and others little bugs along with impressionist, abstract, modernism, and everything else, that is fine but to call any art "not meaningful" is contemptible.  Of course, we can discern the upcoming and existing master artworks and artists that paint them, that are on the site.  There is no doubt about that.  Perhaps you should give them their own category so that we can view more of them instead of having to go through so many?  More categories, would help if that is the intent.  I would appreciate not having to look at all the blood.  So a blood category would be good for those that are into it.

If you got this far, thanks for reading my journal!

What's all the hoopla about?  Link below:

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Amidst an obstacle filled week I am trying to keep the positive thoughts going since my brain is in a fog.  One child with appendicitis this week, one of my older children broke her leg and I have to have two root canals done.  Ouch, the pain has been so bad.  Creative clusters have blown up in my head.  Have to sit this one out but will snap out of this in no time!  Good vibes to everyone else!

Love the song New Attitude and that's what I am bringing to this day.  Feels good!